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ANNIVERSARY GROOVY BOYBAND! THEY ALL LOOK SO GOOD, I also love the hades reference with idia! Ik ur probably really swamped with the book 7 brain rot but I wanted to know ur thoughts. I also wanted to mention that I am so card deprived I feel like I need a replacement event to take tsumderlands place
AUGH NO I LOVE THEM. 😭 UGH now I really have to think about if I want to try pulling for Grim again. dangit. heck. I already got his little pedestal to add my guest room shrine, but...now I kinda need the boss himself...
also, the implications of it not being an OB thing, Idia can just. Do That? apparently? do you think he ever just sometimes does it by accident? what am I saying, he absolutely sometimes does it by accident.
gosh though. this event has been SO cute in general! I was wondering who'd get the focus for year 5; I could not be happier that the answer is apparently EVERYBODY. :D all the dorms get their own special songs! so many cute little scenes!!! the lowest of stakes bringing out the highest of pettiness in everyone!!!!!! it's excellent.
(also, because I will make literally anything about my diaboys...I know these events are typically sorta, let's say chronologically unmoored with regards to story. but the further implications that this takes place pre-episode 7/Malleus' Big Existential Crisis, and yet...some of these lines?)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twst 5th anniversary#i hope that's the correct tag for filtering purposes#anyway gacha continues to have me in a bind#i have scrambled up enough keys/gems that i could hit the 100 pity mark on ONE pickup#so now i have to choose between grim or silver#with the caveat of course that i might end up not getting either#(or hoping i might magically somehow get another 31 keys to hit 150 on the anniversary medal pickup to trade for masqueralleus)#(this is extremely unlikely but if we don't have hope we have nothing)#uggggh i hate decisions#on the one hand. look at silver's card. just LOOK at it.#and i could absolutely use a void-typed attack card! especially with that duo!#but also my sweet grimbleshanks in his little sparkly blazer...#how can i possibly say no to the boss#i feel like if i had managed either platinum grim or armor sebek that would've decided it for me for collection reasons but NO#the pulls have just been an unmitigated disaster all around#the way this has been going i'm going to go all in on one of them and come out with yet another dorm trey#and then five minutes later they'll announce white rabbit rerun with froufrou fluffy bunnies leona and malleus#truly...f2p mobage is suffering#i had also kinda been thinking if i didn't get anything i might buy that malleus figure once it went up for preorder...#(i do not allow myself to spend money on gacha because. i know myself. but i will buy ALL the overpriced merch)#i forgot just how STUPID overpriced those figures are though#it is a really nice figure though...and it'll only be worse on the secondhand market...#i mustn't. i won't. but also.#hey twst feel free to make this up to me by giving me that fluffy bunny malleus after all okay
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#kirby#plants#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#I mean honestly truly I am a winter girlie (gender neutral) through and through#but fall means winter is coming :)#(summer is my enemy. I hate the sun. I hate being warm. I hate 16 hours of flippin daylight. it's all bad for me.)#also something about the phrase 'unrestrained summer fun' is really speaking to me lately#especially when paired with very mild activities (as above) or like. other people actively trying to stop the actor in question.
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etho said actually you _don't_ understand the intricacies of how tango is my boyfriend and bdubs is my ex
(and how tango and bdubs kiss too)
Scar: We went on that little adventure, you know! Etho: Yeah, yeah, we had our adventure, that's true, that's true. Scar: You disparaged your teammates. That's it, all right, no more spoilers. Etho: (laughs) Our team has -- our team has some weird dynamics this -- this season. Cleo: (overlapping) Really, Etho? Is there trouble in paradise? (pause) Who's third-wheeling with you, again? I can't remember. Etho: (laughs) Uhh. The -- Cleo: Genuinely can't remember. I know it's you and Bdubs. And...Tango? Tango. Tango. Etho: (loudly) Why -- Why is Tango the third wheel? Why -- why isn't Bdubs the third wheel? Cleo: Because it's you and Bdubs. I'm sorry. I understand how that relationship goes. Etho: (dissatisfied) Hmm.
#why is this what makes me post again#tangtho#etho#ethoslab#tango#tangotek#tango tek#bdubs#bdoubleo100#bangtho#< saw that in etho's comments. and. yeah#also consider that tango and bdubs were together first this series and etho is the third wheel#to the fucked up love hate thing they have going on#there's never been something more appreciating and adoring BUT biting each other as tangdubs#goodtimeswithscar#hermitcraft s10#wild life smp#wild life smp spoilers#(Sorry but some people have ethubs blinders on but that's so much less interesting to me than the whole.#Yes bdubs is pathetic and will always be at etho's feet. and Yes etho will pity bdubs and want him protected.#but tangtho (!!!) has SO much more to play with...to Me.)#and Why is etho being a tango girl so under-noticed??? lmao. it's there to be noticed All the time#hot mic! hot mic!#but also lowkey dreading ep2 lmao#anyway I'll regret posting this lol#(also I see you asks in my inbox. sorry I haven't replied yet <3 re: s7 oh do I have thoughts! it's where it truly kinda began... I started#forming a reply to you back in May I think but I've been kinda averse to posting/participating in the fandom side for a while. sorry I#stopped being a good place for your tangtho snippets </3 I've still been watching and enjoying the streams and the tango etho joy continues#just haven't really felt like posting)
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#Animorphs#personally I think it’d go#ax Marco-cassie (tie that he’d hate) Tobias Rachel Jake#ax would be quintessential. tumblr distilled. especially since he keeps up with his shows#cassie would be an animal/science blogger in a really popular way and Marco would#Marco would make really cutting/observant remarks that would make you bust a gut#Tobias would be a less often kind of ax guy. naturey posts half the time. btw both he and ax are straight up about#being hawks and aliens and no one would truly believe them/believe them more than a kin thing#Rachel would be a fashion/opinion blogger and WOULD be really good at it. except she doesn’t really want to get tumblr and forgets she has#an account except when instagram is being annoying.#Jake doesn’t really care for social media and enjoys watching YouTube mostly#he’d get an account to follow his friends/cousin here because he’s supportive#David would be a cybersmith#but unpopular#visser three would reblog mostly cat things and posts about bloodthirstiness#and would occasionally post the kind of shit that if you#ran across it#it would be instant block time
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Bonus round! Do you use a queue tag?
#ive been super curious about this because people seem to have really strong opinions on the queue! so many people seem to HATE it#but i love using the queue! i dont really know exactly why i like it so much- i started using in like... 2016 and its a fundamental part of#my tumblr experience now. i think i started off just using it for offline hours so id hit most my american mutuals (/ for aes posts)#but these days basically everything goes in my queue (cept time sensitive things & like. current hype and original posts-#anything 'normal' posting is in the queue)#idk it feels. nice to me! i like to spread out my posting and not rb 30 things in half an hour and then disappear for the rest of the day#esp since my spaces are so circular- the same post runs on my dash a dozen times minimum. and i get to put it on ur dash a week late!!!#and its so nice to have small interactions with mutuals in incompatible timezones; to open up my notifications in the morning#and go: oh! my friends were here <3#its such a Part of the tumblr experience for me i dont think i could ever truly change now. maybe switch to timed queueing#but my availability changes so much i prefer to just. know i guess#but (i am so sorry for all that) im curious about how other people feel!!!!!! itd be so interesting to hear abt why people do/do not like i#i know some people like the experience of spamming and going. some people think it makes this seem to much like influencing or whatever#everyone has their reasons and i want to know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#nyxtalks#poll#queue#no see answers option because you must fall into one of these
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Do you think Wukong ever surrounded himself in darkness and hoped that Macaque would appear within it?
#purplearts#lego monkie kid#lmk#sun wukong#lmk sun wukong#six eared macaque#lmk macaque#shadowpeach#drew this on my school tablet instead of doing my art class assignment. truly the pinnacle of productivity#felt really funny because i was looking over my shoulder the entire time because gay people on my screen#they're sooo awful i hate shadowpeach they're sickening. [said like a liar]
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stupid opinions don't shape a person's value. while the haters are busy with their keyboards, the people who actually know him, the people who work with him, his colleagues, his mechanics, his engineers—they respect and love him.
ABU DHABI GP 2019 | lando surprised perf engineer andrew jarvis with a helmet design ahead of his final race - nov 29th


oh no meee shoes

nside joke turned into something way more meaningful. jarv designed a pair of shoes for lando on powerpoint (no less!) and when lando opened them on his twitch stream, everyone who was there could see the emotion on his face as he realized the thought and effort behind the gift + jarv was there, screenshotting the whole thing and then he posted it on his ig



jarv was gone for 3 years and when he finally came back to mcl f1, lando managed to secure p2 at the singapore gp making it their first podium together.
there's always this weird echo chamber online, there's always that underlying assumption that just because ppl on twitter dot com hate on him, everyone else must be on the same page. well, the ones that matter are not on the hate train.
#a big & emotional one aha#ngl those shoes were adorable jarv really outdid himself#idgaf if y'all hate ln bc i know he's so loved by the right ppl#by the ppl who truly know him so yeah#mclando#<- my beloveds#lando norris#lando19
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When They Match Each Other's Freak
#dc#rhato#Jason Todd#Roy Harper#jayroy#They're so fucking weird about each other that Kori's over there like “Excuse me. What the fuck. I Do Not Recall Consenting to this.”#Roy achieved levels of stalking that only a Bat can truly appreciate.#Sidenote I see the first panel all the time but I don't often see the mirror from Pfeiffer's run#Sidenote I really fucking hate that you can see Jasons eyes sometimes in that helmet. Its not always. It seems to be like retractable lense#it's still horrifying#I wish RHATO wasn't allergic to giving Kori real clothes 90% of the time
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crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.
i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.
in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.
i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.
i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.
plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.
the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.
we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.
i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.
a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.
today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.
loved beyond thinking.
#spilled ink#writeblr#personal#please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it#i really try not to write so specifically about it#bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child#i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years#i might delete this. feels big.#the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum#and if u say ur autistic#inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms#please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do#and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort.#but it still feels like...#when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing.#they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly?#and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find#the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go)#and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW."#''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.''#and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic#someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.
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currently watching the finale of fhjy….maybe they should have listened to wilma and digby’s song about feeling mad
#truly blimey#fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#dimension 20#d20 fhjy#d20#jace stardiamond#i really want ti draw the rat grinders but im in a bit of a slump#but ooohhh rat grinders they could never make me hate you#anyway jace caught my attention bc he seemed like a character i would design#not sure why#so i did a little portrait to get myself drawing again!
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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Hmmmm…monkey
#sorry guys I’m on a mythology kick rn#I also watched legos monkie kid despite hating the Lego style and had a lotta fun actually can’t wait to draw the characters in my style 👍#journey to the west#lego monkie kid#lmk sun wukong#sun wukong#so was anybody gonna tell me that there’s mpreg in journey to the west#or was I just supposed to find that out in the same chapter its revealed that sun wukong is a pro choice activist and abortion water exists#jttw truly is THE template for all modern tropes huh#digital art#my art#the cure to burnout is rest and media exploration#also have fun :)#watching black myth sun wukong playthroughs and desperately trying to convince myself that I’m not a furry#they really said return to monke and meant it
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I believe it was a divine intervention who wrote Will Solace on the narrative because how the fuck is he so interesting with so little screentime in the original series? This child who lost siblings and couldn’t even mourn them because he was dragged left and right to help, this child who became a talented and great healer at the ripe age of 12 and became a prodigy at 13, this child who kept absorbing pain and pushing down anger, this child who faced his trauma with a Trademarked Solace Smile and makes everyone feel safe besides himself, this child who had to be a dependable pillar, this child who saw death for so many times and had to accept it, this child, this child, this child whom everyone turns to at all times, this child who’s still only 16 and hasn’t properly been himself much because he has a duty that he loves and must uphold—helping and healing, something he deemed he could only do for others because he believed couldn’t do anything else. This child who got so scared when his best friend went missing, when his remaining siblings went missing, when he thought his father didn’t recognize him. This child who swallows his sadness. This child who was afraid of not being enough, who was afraid that people might leave him if he wasn’t—this child was afraid of people leaving him, because his own Dad did, his relationship with his Mom was not told much, the older siblings he loved left him by death, and he was nervous if Nico will leave him too. This child who feared losing the love of his life so he turned to his anger, his rage, his wrath—all pent up and went loose for a few minutes at Night herself and gave her a fucking hay fever. This child who had his own identity, who had and still has endless possibilities regarding who he is, his powers, and feelings yet reduced to just being a silly, goofy, perfect boyfriend healer of Nico di Angelo who never had a bad day and is stable—and some people loathe him for being “Nico’s Boyfriend” as if it’s his fault. This child is William Andrew Solace and I believe none of us has truly met him fully.
#will solace#PLEASE LET’S TALK ABOUT HIM#he has a lot of potential and he is overlooked#people look at him but have you SEEN him truly?#do you all REALLY understand him?#and SOME people hate him because he’s Nico’s boyfriend.#it is not his fault why he is. Nico chose him. stay pressed.#he is not Nico’s either#he is his own person why do people forget that too#will solace is an interesting and complex character#i could write ESSAYS#percy jackon and the olympians#heroes of olympus#trials of apollo#the sun and the star
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heinrix and idira become psyker besties, pt. 2
#heinrix van calox#idira tlass#warhammer 40k: rogue trader#warhammer 40k#rogue trader#roguetraderedit#w40kedit#part 2 about a year later lmaoooo#but I always meant to gif this because it makes me so emo#considering how heinrix has always viewed himself as disposable and justifies the mutilation he's received due to being a psyker#and the way he's spoken about idira in the past#but here he is connecting to her and convincing her she deserves better#he truly wants to be merciful he really does#meanwhile idira being treated so gently by someone she fully expects to hate her#she's so used to being the Other and being it alone#😭#edits tag
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I think sonic had a really good time not being playable for once and just being supporting cast for his friend shadow. i just know he was soooo excited to explain the controls and not worry about rings and cheer on his friend (and sometimes be a final boss :3)
#sth#shth#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#sonic the character#fanart#id in alt text#i have. another batch of shadow (game) drawings after this#bc im having a really good time with it#it is definitely somewhere in the top 3 sonic games for me. it's good! and anyone who says otherwise just hates fun#sonic in this game soooo funny he IS so annoying but it is so cute truly#im really bad at the hero mission in space gadget but sonics dialogue is sooooo cute in that..#he's just having fun racing with his friend again 🥺#shadow is having the most intense and miserable experience of his short life and sonic is just like yaayayayay video game yaaay!#anyway. return of my adventure-era sonic design. even tho shth canonically takes place A While after sa2#whatever. they r the same to me
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what's so refreshing about will as a character is that he doesn't throw a denial tantrum about it at any point like most characters with Darkness Within Them do. he's not a moral paragon, his angst and secretkeeping don't get annoying at any point. and i think it's because there's no contrast between who will Really Is, which is Good and True, and the dark king as his shadow or his dark self.
will is the dark king. he behaves like the dark king. he lies and he manipulates and he's a "sneak" and he's scaringly charming and he's possessive over james and a ton of other messed up shit and he tells himself it's for a good reason, and maybe it is!! and will is clearly you know. a Good Person. while his methods are sneaky, he does not actually do anything wrong. but those are his methods still, and they are cool moments and badass and also kind of eerie.
with the way he's written, i would argue will doesn't have or even need a corruption arc, he's just like that from the get-go and he's not gonna change. and i don't mean he was born evil or whatever other bullshit i mean that he was born a full person, including the dark king and will both, and there's complexity, but no clear line separates them.
#it's fascinating truly#i'm really glad we get a more full view of his psyche in dark heir even if there's a lot of stuff he's repressing#dark rise#dark heir#dark heir spoilers#will kempen#and maybe. i won't even agree with this by the time the 3rd book comes out#and that's rlly frustrating bc i hate not having the full picture of anything before i have an opinion#but that's part of the fun of it i guess
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